Burnt Toast Never Made Breakfast Any Better

two years
i loved you
i loved you from afar
i loved you when i was supposed to love another
two years
two years i loved
from within my own personal four walls
because you were never my type
or good enough for me
or the man i should love
you weren't the all-star
or the champ
but you were my love
two years
two years i loved you
i loved the thc and the cfc's
i loved the barley grains
i loved who you were
i loved how your heart beat
and i never could tell
untill now
whether it beat a morse code for me
whether it beat out your true love for me
whether it beat the passionate musings of an artist disturbed
or the mistrusting nothings of a man disrupted
but i guess it was the thc and the cfc's
and the barley grains that it beat for
i believed that you could be better
i believed that you were amazing
i believed that you
you could love more than you imagined
i loved you
two years i loved you
i loved you
and everything you were
i loved the heart
i loved the heart that i unsurely spoke to with my own
i loved the heart that could love so much
and yet trust so little
two years
i loved
two years it was you
and not the one i pledged my heart to
and in those intimate moments
it was your heart i dreamed of
it was you and your smile
it was you and your words
it was you and your gentle touch
it was you
you
you that i loved so intensely
so defiantly
it was you
you that i loved so relentlessly
it was you
it was you that i gave myself to freely because i trusted you
it was you
it was the thc and the cfc's
and the barley grains
that i loved
because thats all you were
and now i realize that you
that you
that you are now the man i knew you could be
that you are now the man that is worthy of me
that you are now the man that i believed was there
when no one else did
your heart now beats out your love for another
while in those intimate moments i still think of you
i still dream of your heart
i still dream of your touch and your kiss
because it wasnt just the thc and the cfc's
and the barley grains that i loved
it was the man they inhabited